Have you ever stopped dating someone and felt a draw back to them even years later?
{Not talking about dating them again - can you spell d-i-s-a-s-t-e-r?}
I ask because today I felt very refreshed while looking at pictures on facebook of a recent wedding. I felt this way because I am not involved in the drama or in the friendships of aforementioned people I thought I was friends with. Sure, when you break up with someone, usually their friends aren't your friends anymore - but this wasn't like that....at least not at first. Yes, the people in the pictures are special, but they aren't special to me. I'm sure some of you are thinking that's so selfish to think that way, but in all honesty, I am the only person looking out for me. For the past few years I keep thinking {and sometimes expressing} that I feel a sense of loss and want to see my ex and play the "what if" game. Maybe this is why I haven't dated anyone longer than a year while living here in FL. Maybe this is why I haven't been 100% confident in my decisions with dating and in having a high self-esteem. What made that guy so special that I have to know what's going on with him? I DON'T. I have more of a sense of peace because I am in a new place. I am not going to let the power of one person in my past change or skew who I am now. I am in a new place and have a sense of satisfaction and reward with my job. I can't really put a finger on why seeing those pictures made me feel refreshed - maybe clarity, or renewed is the word I'm looking for?
Day 20 of All Good Things: Spending a day in a teacher workshop where I learned something I didn't know. Every day we should learn something new.
