I've never been a casual dater and last night proved to me that I'm not sure dating is a good thing for me right now... Not having much in common with someone is tough, although the conversation was great. Learning about someone and what they want out of their future changes how you view another person, especially when out on a date with them. I'd like to think my future involves a man who is my best friend and who enjoys things together. I don't see myself wanting to see someone who travels for weeks on end for their job, smokes like a chimney, and one who flat out says they want to have a life free of committments (i.e, relationship, animals, girlfriends,etc).
Is it wrong that I don't feel enthusiastic about getting to know someone new? Or that I don't want to date them again because of their smoking habit? Here I go second-guessing a fun evening only because he isn't what I have planned in my head. Where is the Prince Charming fit for my life? A guy that doesn't smoke, holds the door open, has a great smile, and appreciates me for who I am and not what they expect me to be. I don't regret going out last night with a guy I walked up to - it led me to realize I'm not ready for sharing my life with someone right now...Now I just have to let the guy know...but does this mean I do it through a text message? Call and leave a message? Let it go, don't say anything and hope he gets the hint? Not having a date in almost a year makes me wonder why I bother - it's so much easier to do what I want and when I want than to be with someone...at least that's how I feel right now...
