The Root of ALL Evil

Money.

Yes, money is the root to all evil. It will allow you and  prevent you from doing something you want, as well as from purchasing an item you desire. In my case, it is preventing me from visiting family and friends back home.

Many people I've talked to have asked me why I don't just charge the trip home. Not so easy when you don't have a credit card. I chose this because of the fluctuating interest rates when the credit card companies could do what they wanted. (That's a whole separate story). I'm also trying to lower my debt and move into a cheaper apartment when my lease is up to save more money, as I'm slowly throwing money out for bills and rent and dog shots/antibiotics. Not getting paid in the summer is awful. I've learned the hard way - so if I ever have children and must go on maternity leave anytime during the school year, I must have a million dollars in savings to get me through the summer without a paycheck.

I do need to be grateful, however, that I will still have a meager savings account when school starts back up... I don't know how people do this every year and they own a home! *sigh.

So while I'm crying and upset about not going home, I'll just keep telling myself that I'll be able to go another time when I do have money and to be thankful I have the opportunity...

{yesterday, I received a little note from my parents, with a money order inside. How do they know? Is this some eerie way of the universe telling me that my parents know what's going on no matter how far away from home I am? The money comes without guilt or a designated use, but I have a feeling that I'll feel guilty if I use it for anything other than going home. Now comes the personal guilt trip...}  

Day 17 of All Good Things: Taking Charley-dog to the vet, paying his bill, and knowing he's ok! {even amidst the tears with the vet that the original bill was too high - good to know they have discounts/coupons they don't advertise to help people with the cost!}